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Dear Reader,

Psalm 27 is the scripture base for today's entry.

Have you ever had a moment where something hit you so hard an immediate rush of an emotion came over you?
Either it made you immensely happy, sad, angry, disappointed...

That happened to me tonight. I became determined.

As soon as that freight train of a realization hit, the question was asked as if blaring through a megaphone:

"Jessica, what are you waiting for?"

It startled me. Not in fear but in urgency. If you're reading this, and have talked to me in depth about...life...there are lots of dreams and ideas brewing around in my mind. Sometimes to the point where I ramble in circles, catch myself, apologize for rambling, and try to "sum up" my point (and I love you dearly if you've ever experienced one of those conversations).

A few entries ago I mentioned how there may be those "I will" seasons. God says that "He will" do something, and it is a matter of actually letting Him do what He said He promised to do. I failed to see at the time that much of that also has to do with waiting. I've even written past entries on waiting before-

but not like this.

Most of the time, I don't like it when someone says, "Awww...you're just a baby," or anything for that matter along those lines. I will think to myself, "I'm 19...not 5.". To be honest though, there is no need for me to be upset about my age, what has happened in my life thus far, and where it is going, because Lord willing, there is more to go. This leads me to say the following:

When I opened my devotional tonight and the title reads "Wait and Prepare Yourself," I saw that many times I've waited on people, a man, an opportunity, a paycheck, but very little on God. I've probably said it to myself, to others, or heard it a thousand times, but there's a difference between something being said and hitting you square in the face, and something that registers in your spirit, like it did for me tonight.

People are clearly, not God, and no where near close. One of the hardest lessons I've learned is that they truly do come and go in life. God is God and THE I Am. Period. (Rev. 1:8).
A man (for the ladies) or a woman (for the men), will not satisfy your heart. I repeat: Will NOT. Emotions, people's opinions, and creative fantasies will not last. God MADE our hearts, and knows them much better than we do. (Phil. 4:6-7).
An opportunity, is usually temporary. It does not define who you are or what you are capable of. His plans, for YOU, His child, for HIS Kingdom, go into eternity. (Jer. 29:11-14).
A paycheck, may not be the amount you expected to make, and may not come when you need it. God's provision sustains, maintains, and is always on time. (Luke 12:22-34).

I say this still taking it in for myself.

Do not wait on the unreliable.

Wait on the One who knows every step you have taken and are going to take.
Wait on the One who gave you the gifts and burning desire that you have to change the world and the people in it.
Wait on the One who made you for a specific purpose that no job title or position could give you.
Wait on the One who has seen each intimate moment of your life - who made you.
What on the One who sees the end of something we may not have even see begin.

Wait on God.

Blessings,

JB


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